The Reasons Why

I have decided to set up this blog to help me cement the emotions, thoughts, musings, and feelings that go along with raising children. Looking at my 3 year old, I wonder how I missed the moment when she became her own fully fledged little person. Seeing my 4 month old grow, I am trying to photograph each moment in my mind's eye. Trying to hold on tightly to the pure joy of watching her smile and laugh for the first time, the sweet smell of a newborn's head, and the warm weight of a tiny body sleeping on yours. Sadly, I already know I am failing. I am already forgetting what she looked like in her first weeks of life, forgetting the sounds she made, and losing the images of her body curled into itself into a perfect fetal position. I have already begun mourning the loss of my "baby", because I know what is to come. They will both continue to grow and change, and I will merely be swept along in their wake. Helpless to stop their momentum of development, and yet conspiring with it to help it continue as smoothly as possible. As it should be. However, that offers me no comfort when I think of the wonderful moments I am letting slip through my fingers and out of my memory like water. So here I am in a last ditch effort to preserve each and every precious moment, every hilarious thing that comes out of their mouths, and probably even a little of the insanity that goes along with being a mother.